her cahiers

“Maternity makes us good, they say. Crap. My life is tied to his, it is dependent on his to the finest possible detail. If he dies, the beauty of the world dies and it will be darkness on my earth forever. In other words, if he dies, I die in the world . . . . There is no longer any difference between my fear of his death and death itself.”
                 ~margeurite duras

(photo of duras from here)