the ugly earring

ug‧ly [uhg-lee] offensive to the sense of beauty; displeasing in appearance

Month: January, 2009

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(alexander mcqueen pre-fall 2009; by way of simply olive)

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eight pieces of me

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minirobot tagged me almost a month ago and yet this has been a difficult post to write.  dearest friends and strangers, it feels as if this blog has become a hyper-extension of myself to a certain degree. any of you who read this blog probably know me predictably well without even knowing me.

so, i’ve spent the last couple of weeks struggling with eight pieces to offer to you that are both new and not mundane.  my latest attempt:

1. the name of this blog came from the idea that i only wanted to make and sell ugly earrings that no one would ever want. the earring business went under but this blog remains.

2. i own several pair of flair jeans and still wear them…in public. (gasp!)

3. i haven’t plucked or shaped my eyebrows in more than three years. they’re an honest mess, and i kind of like it.

4. before my mother came along, my father had a girlfriend named leslie who embodied a kind of youth one stumbles upon while listening to jimi hendrix or janis joplin for the first time. a beautiful free spirit with long straight hair parted in the middle, holes in her bell bottom jeans and a fringe purse. she was a trained equestrian rider.
one day while my father was stationed overseas during the vietnam war, she fell off her horse and was dragged across a texas plain, leaving her face and body disfigured. my father quickly rushed to her side with a wedding proposal, but leslie said no. Instead, she asked him to remember her as she was.  
an  awakening came when i picked up jim morrison’s book of poetry for the first time. at the time, i was wearing thrift store 517s, and falling for long haired hippie boys who read jack kerouac and could juggle oranges. one day as i was suffering through a heartbreak, upset that my love was unrequited, my father sat me down on his pickup truck outside and gave me one of those heavy talks you never forget.
“you think i don’t understand you. but i know you. i’ve heard these poems before, the songs you listen to, and the clothes you wear. Even the things you say at times,”  and then, he told me about leslie.

perhaps it is true a piece of me came from a piece of them. 

5. yesterday, i thought how nice it would be to ride on the light rail and have lunch at haji-babas.

6. i  am oddly attracted to the female wolf spider’s parental instinct.

7.  i won’t eat a banana when there are spots of brown.

8.   i don’t have a middle name.

i tag bare witness because she is a whirlwind of mystery,  aesthetically pleasing because i am thankful for the risto introduction and even cleveland  because she has this thing about fisherman sweaters. on a side note, be sure to check out these eight things: royal quiet deluxe  and all things ordinary.

                                                        (barefoot with cat= my childhood)

fringe benefits

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(mociun fringed scarf)

from the family photo album

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“The inner spaces that a good story lets us enter are the old apartments of religion.” 
            ~John Updike

(our apartment in Koreatown, 2005)

not dead yet

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the turban still finds its way…

(via the face hunter)

just as i fell off the bandwagon

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(amazing comes from the sart)

during an REM phase of sleep

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It swooped down, picking me among the shoppers at the neighborhood mega-wholesaler store, which was the off-shoot crossbreeding between a Super Target and Costco.

 

Its left wing of feathers flinched as it landed on my shoulder. “I like earthy men the best,” the sparrow said as I walked down the aisle of toilet paper and paper towels. “…the ones with long hair and beards.”

 

I read about the talking sparrow in a local newspaper weeks ago. She was a bird that escaped from the pet department and became a store fixture. The store regulars and employees considered her not only piece of the store’s personality but a close friend and confidant.

 

As I placed a package of paper towels in the shopping cart, she continued: “There is a man in particular that comes in twice a week with sunflower seeds for me. He’s been coming for years now. He’s nice but a bit of an alcoholic. He keeps asking me to come home with him and that he’d take care of me. But, I don’t know…I don’t know if I can trust him. Plus, I kind of like it here. It gets a bit lonely at night but I’ve gotten used to it. What do you think?”

 

Suddenly, I found myself responding to her as I would to a girlfriend, advising her to trust her intuition and take things slowly and to always call the shots.

 

We continued our chat as I pushed the shopping cart through the aisles of house goods. She remained perched on my shoulder.

 

“Oh, you must see this bracelet that I’ve been admiring for weeks,” she said, flying toward the women’s accessories section to a display case of silver-plated jewelry. She managed to put her head into one of the bracelets and whizzed around to the full-length mirror.

 

“It’s a bit much, and it’s quite heavy. But, look at how it sparkles!” she chirped.

 

With her small bird frame, it was a bit over-the-top and ridiculous. But, as I searched for a compliment she landed on the jewelry counter frantically. She flapped her wings, shook her head and body. “Oh no…I think it’s stuck!”

 

She shook her body once again, realizing that her fluttering had caused the bracelet to become tangled within her feathers and neck.

 

“Get it off! Get it off!”

 

I tried to take her in my hands, but she put up a fight. Quickly, I realized she was the delicate kind, a fragile bird that could snap with just the slightest aggressiveness or wrong touch. I told her I would get some help and ran to lover who was across the store, looking at blenders.

 

There was a sense of relief in my decision. I knew his hirsute appearance would comfort and provide an instant rapport of trust. Indeed when she saw him, she let him hold her and remained as still as a patient.  He acted quickly. His hands moved with precision, and soon the bracelet was freed and on the counter. However, his big hands had wounded one of her wings.

 

We took the sparrow home with us. Consumed with guilt, I nursed and addressed her many demands. By the end of the first week, she and I were oil and water. She rattled on; and I longed for the return of my own silent corner. When lover returned from his work, she sat on his shoulder for the rest of the evening with the air of a deprived wife. I welcomed it as relief from her chatter but quickly realized it was a mind game directed toward me. And, she was winning.

 

I took ownership of the situation, feeling the profound effects of being born in the year of rabbit. I owned the responsibility of her pain, and even held my tongue when the tale became twisted and the fault of her wounded wing became mine before lover’s strong grasp or her own narcissism.

 

On the morning I told her to leave, I saw her as an equal. She was the woman sitting in a yellow taffeta gown, hair coiffed, made up beautifully, spread out on our couch waiting for lover to return. It was the perfect amount of seduction and suggestion to pack her cage and belongings in the back seat of the car and return her to the place where we originally met.

 

“It’s time to leave,” I said to her.

 

“Oh really…and have you seen how poorly this wing has healed? I’ll never be able to fly as graceful as before,” she said. Then whispering under her breath, “Thanks to you.”

 

I didn’t try to catch her, chase her or wring her neck with my bare hands. I retreated with my weapons–silence and no retaliation–but held the door open. “Get out now.”

 

Months later when I returned to the store, a bit out of curiosity, I looked for my old winged friend. I found her perched on the ponytail belonging to an older man who was quite the hippie-type, the kind of man she preferred.

 

“It was dreadful. Like being kept in a prison with no air to breathe. Held captive by a miserable old hag,” she said.

siouxsie’s eyebrows

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(another from garance dore)

nous insufflons

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collecting family portraits

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(thank you mrs. gordon for the introduction to AKIHIRO FURUTA )